寻寻觅觅

家庭营过去了，还有一个借口可以充一充，就是等国庆日过后。。。哈哈!这几天都在网上找工。。。很多东西要考量的。。。虽说慢慢找，不急。。。可内心就是会有这么一点的挂虑着。。。揪着揪着的。。。面对人时，嘴里也是传来这话题。。。好像现阶段是与这“找工作”的话题离不开的。也对啦，要不?
还是需要好好祷告的。。。这也是我应该要离不开的重要原因之一。好好听神的声音。。。BE Still~

祝福妳

诗，

你真的要离开了。。。真的到了要走的时候了! 对你的不舍我很难掩饰，有想过去掩饰，但是就是做不到。还怪自己没用，忍不住泪。距离你离开的日子越来越近时，我只能不要去想，只想好好地珍惜妳。等到这一天到来时，眼眶湿透了。

你在槟城这个家确实很重要，扮演了很重要的角色。缺了你，真的体验到如姐妹们之前在我们俩还在诗巫时告诉我的，很静!少了笑声。。。我终于体会到了。不过，妳带给我们的欢笑永远留在我的心里。想你时，都会不禁会心一笑。

诗，到家后一切都要加油。家是永远的安乐窝。。。只是妳比我们快一点到家罢了。虽然今后妳要面对的也不少，可是神就是赋予你一颗坚韧不已的心，一颗爱主的心。妳是可以的~ 等我哪天回到诗巫时，我们还是可以畅谈不尽，没有所谓冷淡的情谊，只盼越来越深厚。

我会想你的～

毕业了～

其实已经毕业了四天，到今天才真正有空闲写上这贴。
哇，毕业真的很累了哦，好像结婚一样。。。（虽我没结过婚，但是可以想象是超级累的，而且更累人）
毕业礼的前几天也陆续参加了朋友的典礼，当时心里还没有一丝的兴奋。。。还是很平常心。结果到了那一天就真的有点慌了，因为很多事情要安排，很多东西要处理。头脑要想得比平常更远一点。但是依然很开心，因为家人在一起。他们对我很重要! 说真的，我们一家四口还真的很久没有一起渡假了，这次来槟城真的很尽兴，陪伴在他们身边，带他们去玩去吃去看。。。好温馨!。。。毕业礼结束后，送他们去机场的那一刻，我感觉到我是只翅膀已经长硬了的鸟儿，要飞出那暖窝，寻找自己的一片天空了。。。真的就是这时候了。。。没得好逃脱。我忍住泪，在眼眶里打转。道别了之后，就迫不及待地、头也不回的上车驾走了。驾驶在高速公路上，一直忍一直忍，只知道油门一直踩，快到家了。停好车位，果然不出我所料，老豆打电话来，我泪如雨下。。。更泣不成声。是这样的!
毕业礼当天很开心也很感动。好多花好多礼物也好多人来参加。。。没想到也轮到我被抛了，哈!不过这也是团契的传统，没被抛就不算毕业。总之，就是一生人一次的毕业礼，我把握了。感恩，神这三年来的带领。。。没有神，又会是怎么样的一个我呢?

是时候了

是过于兴奋紧张吗？还是怎么了？我既然生病了啦。。。哎哟。。。赶快好起来啦，毕业典礼剩下几天就快到了。回到了民都鲁，心情有点怪怪的，一直到刚才才释怀，心里好过了一点。将要离开家乡到槟城工作了。虽然之前都在来来回回，但是是求学时期。现在感觉完全不一样，真的是什么都要靠自己。没有父母在身边，也没他们的辅助。。。因为我已经要面对人生的另一个阶段，就是要开始自己担起生活的重任了。这种离乡的感受是很不同的。犹如学会飞翔的鸟儿要自己飞出一片天空去寻觅食物养活自己。顿时发现，我长大了!

这次毕业礼后，要到新年才能再回来家里。去到槟城的日子虽不懂会怎样，但是我相信神的恩典够我用。我不必担忧太多。活好当下就对了。说得出，也要靠神做得到。靠自己，会跌倒的。靠神再爬起来咯! 最重要是自己不要放弃。计划赶不上变化这句话是我的提醒。每当我开始埋怨、泄气时都会想起这句话。很多事情不在我能力范围可以控制的，就不要太执意强求。我要学习凡是感恩、喜乐。知道很难，也知道不易，却又必须要学习走过。

我一生中最感恩的事情，就是认识主耶稣。也是我一生最美的祝福!

Pissed off~~~

Today i really feeling really really upset. I treated ppl as friend, but end up He-being my boss for nearly 3 months, treated me as free labour~ Wow, wat's the world up to nowadays? m i really deserve to be treated like this? as for wat i knew n evaluated myself, i deserve more than that~

31/7 is my last day, U knew it since the first day i came to work at ur firm. I expected to learn n gain more experience so i changed my plan to back penang, n chose to help at ur firm, since u need designer urgently~ It was all becos i treated u as FRIEND~~~But, at last, wat i gained? yea, no doubt i gained knowledge, experience...but my salary? it seemed not up to wat i'd done for u these few months...i was angry, not because u paid me little, but feeling myself so foolish~ As i already done my work before i left ur firm, u jes keep pestering me...asking me to help to finish up other designers' drawing. Why shud i do so? Why shud i obey? The designer whom din finish up her work get better pay than me...have u ever think wat's my feeling to knew it? She din finish her work, din finish a project within a month but get higher pay...ME, who finish 6 projects in 2 n half months, get lower pay, n yet have to finish up her unfinished work...KEpt being persuade by ur words...u told me:"Do help me up my dear fren~" As when i really helped u, at the end u jes simply a sentence:"Thank you very much oh!" It jes made me getting more n more angry.So, better dont keep expressing ur gratitude, but returned me the pay which i deserved...But, u din~~~Actually i can choose not to help u anymore, as i oledi done my part...n i had told u early tat i will leave by 31/7, y u keep pestering me? FREE LABOUR, FREE LABOUR~~~pissed me off indeed~

I admitted that i can hardly accept it right at the moment. Tears rolled down while allen called me up. i'd kept the frustration n hatred in my heart for whole day...and by the time i done the work, i let go my responsibilities. Responsibility to be ur worker, even ur fren~~For the moment i hate, i told allen:"i m feeling bad, but as when i remembered Jesus christ's love upon us, i chose to endure and accept it."